exams exams exams... amagad exams starts tml... oh well i think i'll make it thru, life has been tuff... pretty crappy at times thou... but hey i guess thats life... man nothing really interesting has happend since i last blogged... same old routine shlt... day in day out doing the same thing... now how i wished there was something interesting that would happen...

hmm... been a long time since i last blogged sia... sho much has happend since... skool has been hectic... i've been sick... load of crappy shlt all over man... everything ish over between me n her man... all over... that was the last straw man... pretty fucked up shlt man, who da fuck u think you are? some spoilt princess? wtf man couldn't you even reply? asking for alil help in mah studies too much to ask? wtf man some fwen you are... what a whole load of fucking bullshlt man... dun ever wanna fucking see you again man... FUCK OFF BITCH! damm u really are real sucker. an eye for an eye... u betray me once i betray u once, den we're square. until den we arent even... better watch ur back, dont let me find an opening or you'll fucking suffer lyk hell...

fantastic sunday? haha not quite actually... was @ my 2nd home in the afternoon for my grandfather's death anniversary.. yeah hey grandpops! how is it in heaven??? haha i'll see you up there when my time is up! oh yeah, god is great man... he changed me into someone new just like that man... wow... haha :) well she had an accident todae :( but thank god no one was hurt!!!! :) amen to that!! haha praise the lord :) god is gracious and merciful, that was a perfect example of that :) god could have just ended everything there and then, but he did not :) haha i'm sho full of happiness! the thought of just worshipping god day in day out i just sho amazing! haha... i'm not hurt and sad anymore! cos god took it all away!!! yay!

WOOT! I am sooooooooo happy!!! life is good life is good... i feel like a new person again! wow god is great! today's service was great, fantastic, marvelous! simply great! wow it sure does feel great to be back once more. haha things maybe not bode well but with god i trust everything in his hands... everything i will let go into god's hand... no more will i take things into my own hands... i'm sorry if i might seemed alil cold, but i trust in god more den anything else. no more will i live by the flesh but from now on live by the spirit. god is gracious and merciful. :) awesome day its been! sunday will be even greater! :)

wah i'm still damm sick... on and off fever... but its okay, easy does it :) hmm... been trying to reach her the whole dae but to no avail... by now anyother ordinary person would have gone wild... but no i'm still must stay cool and not jump to wrong conculsions. althou its prolly staring @ me in the face le... i choose to believe that god is faithful and will not do something like this to me... its the devil who seeks to waver my faith, but it shall not falter. wounded and beaten down, i'll still keep my faith to the very last breath... for god is gracious and merciful. more trials and tribulations shall come, and with each trial and tribulation i conquer i shall be stronger than ever. Have no fear and walk in the light! "Fear hinders Faith, where there is Fear there can be no Faith." If i was meant to suffer so many trials n tribulations so be it, for at the end i will finally find sanctuary... and there is no greater feeling than that.


A world so full of sins and temptations, even fellow christians have fallen right before my very eyes and even now i continue to witness fellow christians doing things against the very teachings of the bible itself. People who are close to me have done such things... but its okay i do not hate but i love them still, god will eventually bring these people back to light. in the mean while if i have to suffer injustice i will gladly do so, for god is gracious.

my faith shall not falter! thru god i shall become even more faithful than before thru hes mercy and grace i have been saved... thru hes light i am finding my way out of darkness.... thru hes strength i can break the bonds of sins... because of god, i can finally defy the flesh... for living by the flesh is sin itself and i choose to live by the spirit even if it cost me dearly i will still walk and hold the cross high... for at the end of the long hard road, god will be waiting to reward me with everlasting life... and i shall forever be in the sanctity of god. To be sanctify by god is a marvelous feeling. now i begin to wonder wad is my 2nd gift from god... could it be the gift of love? 1 corinthians 13:4-5 says "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."
how wonderful love really is... but it is a pity that people in the world does not know what it really means...

WOOT! Life is great! its been tough in recent times but i really appreciated those times because it really allowed me to get close to god once more and that was simply fantastic i couldn't have asked for more :) god is great all the time! god has really showed me the light and now i'm happy that i can finally walk with him once more, no matter what happens i'll always walk with him and him with me. the road ahead will surely be filled with trials and tribulations but remembering 1 corinthians 13:7 "it always protects, it always trust, it always hopes, it always persevers." will surely get me thru everything, god's love for me is strong and so shall mine be. i am greatful to brother chuan, he's the one who introduced me to sooo many new friends! people like dorcas, richard,joel,brenden,xiaowei,liping,brenda and last but not least kenrus!!! (well err.. pardon me if i've forgotten the rest :p) wow its been such a great time spending time with them and getting to know god better thru them! once i thought all was lost, now i see a reason to continue :) my faith and love will be my engine and god will keep my engine going! haha well things have been going good so far with me n baby, and i'm still praying hard and believing that god will bring us back together! YES I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!! and yes! GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE!!!! :)