everything thing i've come to knew, love, enjoy, hate will all come to a stop... feeling the blood slowly flowing out from that wound so deep only a miracle would heal it. i feel that i havent got enuff strength left to pull me thru this crisis, but who will be there? no one will... i was destined to be alone, destined to be condemmed by others, destined to suffer and destined to die alone... i am grateful for my existence so far.. but now it should come to a stop it is far long overdue... baby i thank you for everything you have given me... these memories i can atleast take them with me when i go... do not look for me for i will be long gone into another world... my last chapter, my last line, my last words have been written into my life book and such my life book has come to an end.. the world is a cruel place... i've spent my entire life being battered down... but @ long last i can no longer go on any further.. this blow is fatal... i've completely lost the will for everything... even the will to carry on living... and such i'm just but a zombie living on borrowed time.. how i long for when my heart cease to beat.. then everything will be over... all the suffering, all the anger, all the hatred, all the happiness and all the love... @ long last i shall forever be a memory to others... will i no longer be a burden, just a simple memory. My dear natalie i'll always love you... even when i'm no longer around, rest assured i'll always be watching over you where ever you maybe.. this is the end.